I was thinking this morning, which as I have repeatedly stated is not my strong suit before I have my morning coffee.
What was I pondering you ask?
I was thinking about why I have had so little motivation recently.
It’s not that I have not been playing the game, it’s just that I have not been really excited about it.
Hitting 85 was supposed to be a milestone, not a millstone.
I had it all figured out, you see. I Leveled my Druid first, since I was having such a time getting used to using the Focus mechanics that Hunters had adopted.
Also, that character would have the advantage of being able to fulfil any role in a group with a quick change of gear and the swap of a spec.
It all made perfect sense, in fact it still does.
As it turns out I find I am spending the vast majority of my playtime goofing around on other characters.
Once that Druid hit 85 I got him a bit of AH gear, specced him for running 5 mans, and waited for the group of friends I was planning to run with to be on.
I tried healing a pug… which I could probably do a better job of if I worked at it.
I tried tanking a pug… Screw that, it will be a long time before I tank a pug again.
I even pugged as a lazerchicken a bit while I waited for my friends.
I eventually got tired of waiting.
I want to play in group content, simple as that.
Yes, I can go solo things, work on achievements, level Archeology, (the profession that makes the old Wintersaber grind look tame), or any of a dozen other things.
The more I think about it the more it becomes clear, the point being driven home by my failed attempt at tanking.
My lack of motivation, particularly in playing my Hunters was based on raiding with them. Being at the top of my game, knowing my class so well that everything just kind of happens when I think about it, like driving a car or walking through the house.
Once upon a time I was there, and now I’m not. Thats what got to me.
I was not so much frustrated with the game as with having to start learning to play my character all over again.
I have played a Hunter ever since Karazhan was progression content. A Hunter was the first of my characters to get his mount. The first to get an epic drop. The first to see a raid boss die. The first max level, and a host of other things.
I have no real desire to change.
So I won’t.
If I am not good enough for Raiding I simply won’t go, i’ll run heroics instead.
If I am not yet up for Heriocs I won’t run them either, i’ll run normals.
If I am not the best Hunter in an LFD normal, well then, I’ll be the best Hunter I can be and leave it at that.
The game is supposed to be fun, and I am going to take my fun where I can get it.
I am what I am.
A Hunter is my main.
I don’t have to be the best Hunter out there, I don’t have to be perfect.
I just have to be good enough.
Ever since that clicked for me the game has started being fun again.
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